2003-03-30
Finally, My promise comes true!
Ok...here is the entry that I've promised for the last two day.
I guess I forgot two people when I did my entry yesterday so I'll include them now. One is relevant to my story and one is not so I'll tell you about the irrelevant one first.
Jennie K.: A close friend. We've been friends since freshman year of high school and there have been many ups and downs including some knock down drag out fights when we didn't talk to each other for a long time. Our major problem is that she believes in God and I don't. In fact, her dad is a pastor. My major problem is that she tries to push her religion on me. It's not something I believe in. I respect her opinion and her right to believe in whatever she wants but I get offended when it's all up in my face like that. I love her to death but sometimes I just need a break from her.
Now on to the real story:
Jenny G.: We've been friends since fourth grade in in that time we've been through a lot together including my parent's divorce, her father's cancer and death, her mother's remarriage, and my grandmother's death. We have this bond that's unshakeable. Even though as the years have gone by we have become more and more distant and even though I barely see her anymore, we still have this connection that's almost kindred. It's like we are kindred spirits. I know she understands me because she's been through it all with me and I never have to explain anything to her. She's such a gentile, kind, genuine person. I admire her a lot.
Anyway, I ran into Jenny outside Meijer's the other night and she told me she ran into a girl who had been the third member of our trio in middle school.
Her name is Amanda and we stopped being friends a long time ago for some very good reasons. There had always been a lot of things that annoyed me about Amanda. She was crass, uncaring and judgemental. She has no tolerance for anyone who differs in anyway from herself. Jenny and I always felt like second place friends with her because she would always be like...I called so and so and this person and that person but they weren't home so I called you. She was also mean to a lot of my friends. She brought me down to a very dark place. I wasn't that happy of a person when I was around her. All of these contributed to why I am no longer friends with her. The final straw came in tenth grade when my grandmother died. It was the first time I had had a tragedy in my life during the time we were friends. I was devastated. I went to school the day after I found out looking for solace in my so-called best friend and instead was met with disinterest. I was incredibly hurt and right then made a decision that I wasn't ever going to let anyone put me in a hurtful or dark place ever again. I never talked to her again after that.
She was upset that I was acting the way that I was. She was also upset that Jenny chose to no longer be friends with her too since she decided that was my fault. Even though Jenny disliked her for a lot of the same reasons I did. I told Jenny that I could no longer be friends with Amanda but she could do whatever she wanted.
Anyway, Jenny told me that she ran into Amanda at this gas station where Amanda works. Apparently Amanda was quite rude to her. I was kind of frustrated at that. I mean...why hold a grudge for that long of a time? And why be deliberatley rude to someone that had never done anything to you? I guess I thought that when I left high school, I left all my high school problems behind. I definitely thought I was done dealing with other people's high school attitudes. But apparently no matter how far away you get from a situation, people still act the same.
zappagrrl at 8:13 p.m.